temporary.

Its funny when at one time ur blog is full with all the good happy things, well you know, graduating, started chambering, raya, etc but at one point it turned another way around. totally wretched. and now, its full of desolation, unhealthy life, tears, breaking down, depression, bla bla bla. happiness just cant stay long with me ke? i was really2 happy for the past 4 months. but now, its all gone :( Giving false hope and promises which you cant fulfilled are not cool baby. not cool at all.

I know i maybe at fault sometimes. but dont hentam all on me. there's wrong on your part as well. i tried to give my super best. but it still didnt work out. well, this is actually the moment i fear the most. to lose and to let go. maybe after this i would not get myself into this kind of thing anymore. serik sangat dah. i really thought that i can rely myself on you but im wrong. well, u were, 4 months ago. you impressed me. u've proven that you're different. but now, jauhhhhhh sangat dah. its amazing how ppl can changed in a very short term. (and how am i supposed to believe in marriage now? does my marriage is going to last for 3 months only?) some people said, i expect too much. yes, i am, my history would be the reason for what i am now. but sometimes i dont think i anticipate too much. just show that you care. thats it. i guess its over now. i did not chose this. he did. 'tak serasi'. tuhan je tahu how hancur my heart was that moment.

Maybe time will decice. i have never hate him. i have never mad at him. to be frank, my heart is still with him up until now. but i need to step back and learn this the hard way.

Some said :

"Let him go, if he returns, he's yours. If not, hes not even yours to begin with"

P/s : deep within, please return :(