shits.

i said sorry. maybe i said something i shouldnt have said but it was a slip of tongue. i didnt mean it. i dont need silent treatment please. its effing bothering me in and out. if it was my bad, say it. SAY IT. please dont do this. i feel like shit.

i cant sleep.
i eat chocolates just to keep myself happy.
i bought 3 shawls in which i dont really need them.
i keep my eyes open when i shop just incase u're in the same mall with me (crossing my fingers not to see something which i dont really want to see)
i keep comforting myself when i drive, saying that everything will be ok.
i keep on looking at my phone hoping that i'll get a text or call from you. which until now, NIL.
i restraint myself from crying bacause im sicked of it.
i pretend to be ok infront of my friends because i dont want them to worry anymore.
I DONT LIKE THIS FEELING. AT ALL. IT IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY. FUCK.