Eid.

Some of the photos taken during last year Raya Open House.

note : thank you for coming!!

xx.

Lousy notes.

Ok, terlampau banyaaaaak untuk ditulis kerana terlampau banyaaaakk benda di dalam kepala ini. Congested.

First, i need to send the kain to tailor or else i will not have my baju convo. i have like...shit, A WEEK. sempat ke ek? but according to izzah, her mom will be able to jahit before 9th of Oct. so, yeayyy!! btw, my convocation will be held on the 10th of Oct *excited mode pls* ;))

Second, my fam's open house will be on this 3rd of Oct, the same day we're going to collect our convo robes and pre-convo photoshoot. confirm im going to pengsan that night. itu adalah sangat pasti. tapi saya akan tidur tersenyum walaupun saya sangat penat. ;D

I just received a wedding card from Qherq and Wan, one of my girls is getting married!! woot woot!!! *excited mode again*. Well guess what, Wan tulis "Nai & ......" on the card. hahahaha. the rest or the girls semua ada partner except for me and mia. but what the hell? its my friend's big day, wouldnt want to spoil the day just because i dont have a date. rite?

Congratulation my dearest Qhairawani and Edzuan Ezzady.

On 5 Nov 2009, my cousin will be leaving for London. furthering his studies in ACCA. not very sure of the Uni's name. lupaa laaaa. ouh, my ngah told me that on Oct onwards, nak buat passport will only cost 100 bucks for 2 years. SAYA SANGAT PERLU MEMPERBAHARUI PASSPORT SAYA a.s.a.p.

I think i have a new crush, dia lebih tua 10 tahun dari saya. wahahaha. mari kita gelak!!! (the best thing is, dia tak kenal aku pun!! haha) thats why its called crush!! ;p. er, hes not married yet!! so no worries, saya tidak akan kacau hak orang lain. it hurts, trust me, i know how it feels. but yeah, no more younger guys in my ♥ life. serik. taubat. they cant think well and the worst thing is they CANNOT THINK AT ALL. Losers! (with capital L there!)

apabila makhluk-makhluk kota masuk desa.

the best!! i can just grab it, and there you go. free of charge. tak payah beli kat supermarket ;)

i failed doing this, well, i got one mango la tapi. alaa, these boys pun tak terror gak. but at least we tried. weeeee.

uncle Z, uncle mustaffa and uncle halim.

she was just toooo excited when we said this year raya haji, we are going up north. "Langkawi, here we comeeee" <- she said this ;p

these people tidak boleh duduk bersama, saya akan pecah perut mendengar lawak-lawak mereka. mereka adalah tok2, uncle2 dan aunty2 saya. them, i love ;)

pengsan. itu laaa sape suruh main game sampai pagi, u missed the ikan keli feeding time, jolok buah mangga session, dan macam macam lagi. its ok, next time ye man.

my precious.

my aunty and my mother.

random.

before

after

tiba-tiba terjumpa gambar-gambar ini while doing my spring cleaning, well u know, process of deleting all the unnesesary files in this lappie.

routine

i'll turned half crazy if i lost this. it is not just a planner.

ianya juga sebuah kompas harian.

swooooosshhhh.

i think i have a new crush.

hahahahahahaha.

♥

the good old days. with the three pretty-ies.

these three gorgeous ladies are namely

*farah intan burhanudin.

*adlina alias.

*nazarif sofia fauzun.

sitting alone at 2.30 am somehow reminds me of the good times we had together.

still remember?

1. when we came late, and i mean very LATE to our arabic class during matriculation?

2. when we failed our arabic, not once, not twice, but THREE times? haha. the head department had to provide us a tuition ustazah just for us to pass the final exam. wooo, we're that bad eh? gila laa.

3. when we were in the same room during our first year? our room is like the coolest. sampai jiran bilik atas stalked kita. hahahahhaha.

4. when we skipped or ya, ponteng class? thats a norm for us kan kan? apa kita buat? yes pergi klcc or Lot 10. at 11 am in THE MORNING. apa gila ntah.

5. when theres a guy wrote something about us, being perempuan berlagak bagus, spoilt brat bla bla bla in friendster, and happened to be that guy was in our batch? that was funny yo.

6. when farah had mistakenly thought that ICL final exam paper is in the afternoon when it was actually held at 9am in the morning?

7. when dina had to like menyorok at the car boot just to get out from the college? haha.

8. when sofia and me bought the same roxy bags and wore them to class, not to forget with a pair of cortez. yes, a cortez, roxy bagpack and baju kurung. WHAT THE HELL. it was a big humiliation sofia!! hahaha. what were we thinking? and babe, i still have the bag and the shoes. the best part was, we wore that to klcc as well! CRAZY.

to my farah, dina and sofia.

i love you guys soo much. im sorry if ive ever hurt any of you in any ways. i have no intention.

to sofia, i'll always pray for arwah uncle fauzun, your beloved dad.

al-fatihah.

♥, nazreen rahim.

weeee, i cant wait for weekends.

Lets do some raya shopping people!
♥

well, im talking about going out SPENDing time (and ringgits) with mommy, aunty and my tok, pheww, what more can i ask for? come sooner saturday baby ;) i got this premonition of new handbag and shoes. lalala~

*how do i ask for a new kain eh? they are definitely going to kill me.

roti

yes, its a bread, homemade. and roti itu saya buat. believe it ppl. believe it. haha.

big grin.

london, here i come. weeee.

*but not now, next year ;)

RM800??

rm 800 is a minimum pay for a maid????!!!
thats too much yo. sama dgn my allowance ok!!

its a big no no for me.

i disagree. yeah. NO WAY.

be grateful. thats it.

did you know once you had your leg cut due to diabetic, u have to bury it just like you bury a dead body? and i mean the piece must be buried at the cemetery. saya baru tahu. wow. i learn new things today. huhu. well, i just came back from sjmc. tok long dah selamat operate. alhamdullilah. everything went well except for the fact that he is now living tanpa sebelah kaki, but it should be ok, doctor ckp, dont worry, boleh pakai kaki palsu, he even recommended us the best kaki palsu, and it cost 3k each. pheww. ok, is it mahal or murah for a kaki palsu? saya pun tak tahu.

dear friends, kita patut bersyukur we are now in a pink of health and sempurna physically. just imagine if kita sekarang tak berkaki, or buta or we lost our hand. fuh, i cannot imagine how am i supposed to continue my life. im not ready for these kind of test right now i guess. i know it sounds a bit cliche when i said "kita patut bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada" but seriously, i really mean it. be thankful people for the beautiful life that god gave us. cherish it every single seconds. you'll never know when its going to end.

called it a day. please make this the last.

my tok long just had an operation in sjmc few minutes ago. cutting off his leg due to diabetic. owh god. my tok long yang agak active tu skrg have to live without a leg. sedihnya. well, tok long, we're going to visit you tomorrow ok. take care.

meanwhile, my another tok saudara, pak nek fell down yesterday and he's now admitted to miri specialist. he fell down twice! yesterday and a day before. both time sahur. haihhh. the second time dia jatuh, terus the anak2 hantar gi hospital. but hes kinda enjoying his days kat hospital, dia ckp makan best, tgk tv, yeah, he's cute in a way. hehe. tapi pak nek, since you are farrrr away across the sea, i could just pray and hope that u'll recover soon. u take care as well.

all this happenings reminds me of my arwah tok. i spent almost a month with him in sjmc, that place was my home for that particular time.

i miss asking him what to eat? i miss asking him "atok, nak tgk tv?", "atok nak bangun?", "atok nak minum?"

in a simple words, I MISS HIM. the last thing he asked from me was his songkok and i still have the songkok with me until today ;( but i coudnt barely look at it, i'll break into tears straight away. pheww.

i know you're here. right here watching us. i love you and you'll be in my heart forever tok.

yes, im still angry.

and now, here comes more sad stories.

well, sekarang ini naizatul nazreen is not in a good term with her grandmother. well, idk.

tiba2 dia marah2. what did i do wrong? hmm, saya pun tak tahu.

actually i know why, being the eldest and first cucu does somehow bring a big effect in the family. u tend to get this high expectation from people around you. semua berharap kat si cucu ni. well, im not complaining. im super duper ok with it, but orang lain yang dengki yang membawa masalah. they just cannot see other people senang, they will start asking "where is your cucu?lama tak nampak?" and then they will go like this"anak si...... tu skrg ni dah kerja dah pandai berparty2, kuar dgn lelaki mana ntah.....bla bla bla." so a nenek being a nenek, teruslah terpoison akal fikiran dia, memikirkan yang anak cucu dia will do the same thing. being a paranoid i can say. and tak pasal2 aku kena marah, dia ckp jgn asek nak pergi party. PARTY mana niii?? for all i know, if balik lewat pun, i'll be at mamak EATING cheese naan for ged sake.

for me, the most disturbing thing is for being accused of doing something yang tak pernah dibuat pun. i never did anything yang memalukan nama family. i know how to jaga family's good name. but please dont accused me of doing something that i didnt do. sakit hati. karang if i buat betul2 tau laaaaaa.

i remembered one day my dad used to say this "kau ni dah pandai merayau eh, kau nak jadi apa? perempuan jalang?" and thatttt i tell you, im going to INGAT forever. it was your mistake dad. u were the one who forget to fetch me up after school. leaving me alone dkt skolah, tunggu macam org bodoh, with all the org gila walking around the street. it was 8 pm dad. 8pm! dah malam, and nasib baik i saw my tuition friend, HE WAS MY TUITION FRIEND. he sent me back home, and what did i get? PEREMPUAN JALANG. wth? so, from that incident, i hate people accusing me, saying this and that, padahal, i didnt do it.

im trying to give my best to all of you. but i need my own space as well. being a girl who had been raised up without a man called dad, is painful enough. i had to do all by myself. i DID everything SENDIRI.

please dont let me stay in this room mending the heartbreaking and thinking about all the humiliation in which i do not deserve.

angeerrriiiii.

5 th september.

its nuar's birthday. the girls and the boys are kinda celebrating it tonite. and im at home.

being in DETENTION.

bengang gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! rasa mcm dalam ISA. tiba2 tak bleh kuar. heee. stress siut. erghh.