Hello June!! :)

hye ms blog! its been a whileeeee since i left you. hehe. well, i guess it has been 6 months+ saya tak update blog ni. sorry, sebab time tu saya tengah happy menghabiskan masa bersama-sama seorang manusia bernama (hell im not going to mention his name) sampai tak ada masa nak update awak. but yeah i was verrrryyy happy at that moment of time, yet and until it stopped around the end of april because apparently he has another girl. well, this is according to his FRIEND pun, not from his own mouth and up until now, i dont hear a single word from him. he dont bother to explain what really happened, what went wrong. if i ever did wrong, i just want him to tell me, i want to know.

he left. and he left just like that.

i've been through hell for about a month. macam ORANG BODOH pun ada. tak makan, bukan tak nak makan, TAK BOLEH makan. what more? i quit my job. yup. i quit my job. cry??? jangan cakap la kan. macam orang GILA menangis. name one time i DID NOT cry? NONE. i cried on the day i was called to the Bar. i was supposed to be the happiest person on that day, i got admitted as advocate and solicitor kot! it has been my cita2 dari kecik okay ;( apa lagi? hmm, drive menangis, masuk toilet nangis, nak tidur nangis, bangun tidur nangis, i felt like i was a piece of shit at that time. I could barely open my eyes pun. the worst part is, i cannot cry at home. my mom cannot see me crying. tak boleh! so where do i go? i was lost. totally lost. i went to every one's place just to get away, to have someone accompanying me. i have a bag full of clothes, stuffs in my car just in case i decided to crash at their place. my car was my moving home. i had everything at the back seat of my car sampai org nak duduk pun tak ada tempat. i spent a lot. i had chocolates everyday. i'll make sure i have a bar of snickers in my handbag. sampai ada this one day, it melted in my handbag and i dont fucking care to wash it. i have never use my credit card, but when this happened, i spent 1k in 2 weeks time. only god knows i spent on what. saya dah tak ingat. i took more than a month to pull myself together. i cried when me and my friends were having dinner @ The curve. saya takut, saya takut saya nampak dia dengan orang lain. saya tak kuat lagi. and ya, the memories we had toegether rushed thru my head everytime i went to the places that we've been. sedih. sampai sekarang, i couldn not step my foot at Pvl. i used jalan kuching from gombak to damansara when actually i can just use mrr2, but i cant. i'll pass by his house if i were to use mrr2. and that, my friend, is not a good idea. thats how this person had affected my life.

ok, i'll update more later k. everyone in the office dah siap2 nak balik. im not going to stay alone here. huh, mmg tak la kan. see ya later aligator :)

i loike :)

♥ my favourite ♥

February.

lets update. whats happening lately ya. hmm....

1. pindah barangs.

we are renting out the sri andalas' house. since the house is like penuh nak mampus dgn furnitures, we have to take out the furnitures and put them at my other house in klang. my mom and tok even sold some of the furnitures. ala-ala garage sale. hehe. the most wanted stuff was my mickey mouse cupboard!!! haha. 4 ppl were interested on that. my mom said, sape sanggup bayar byk, dia dapat. gila macam lelongan awam. huhu. and its my super lama, mcam nak roboh punya cupboard yang org nak? hmm, weird :p. aunty raja bought our dining table. owh, i love her, shes always been nice to our family. alan and rahma took the dining table and brought it back to kak syanie's house in B.A. erm, what else, i gave out my clothes to my neighbours. and they were super happy to received that. sangat gembira when i see their happy faces ;) my tok puan sold her Pyrex pinggan mangkuk, and she got 400 bucks for that! she said it was more expensive when she bought them yearssss back. now, whos the big spender here? haha. no wonder my arwah tok was very particular on money and expenses. owh, talking about my arwah tok, as i was cleaning up the cupboard and checking all the documents in it, i found a stack of files which i believe belongs to my arwah tok. he keeps all the receipts, documents, letters tentatively. basically i got to know the exact date he bought ALL the things in the house. he is a VERY well managed man. not to mention his medical bills, and all the reports when he was in SJMC. i saw the last medical report few days before he passed away. and i couldnt help it but to nangis :( i continue to korek-korek all the stuff in the cupboard, i saw his watch and that people, is like a knife stabbed right thought my heart. i miss him. very much.

2. my new baby.

lets not talk much about this, all i know its on the way to meeeee now. hehe. in 3 weeks time maybe ;)

3. works.

i think february is the most tiring month but i like it. hehe. the challenge is more and i think ive been attending courts almost everyday. our office boy lari, ya, as in lari with the documents and money. haish, at least letak la documents tu sorok2 kat pintu office ke malam-malam pastu lariiii laaaa. ni documents pun bawak skali, its menyusahkan tau. kesian to the staffs. so basically ada la few days i had to be despatch, hantar documents, filing, pergi post office. haha. gila cool ok!! sebab at first i was like "gila ni, boleh ke settle all these within office hours? to rush to few places with CAR, (motorbike bleh cilok-cilok. takyah queue in jam. hehe) and to be able to arrive safely?" hahaha. but i made it!!! the feel was like macam menang explorace! ;)

4. aunty nai!!

kherq is pregnant!! hehe. 4 weeks. i am very happy for them. sangat happy ;) i got the know the news when i was driving back home from fiza's. and masa she told me about the news, i was like "sape pregnant?" and kherq jawab "aku la gila". hahaha. i was screaming like hell, org keter sebelah mesti igt im a crazy woman talking to herself sambil jerit-jerit. over excitement i guess. hehe.

5. confession.

i confessed just now. i told him what i really feel, dah penat nak berkias-kias or giving hints. and we discussed in a good way. no jerit-jerit. no nangis-nangis. (ok, tipu. haha, ada la nangis sikit) i feel relieved!!!! now can sleep peacefully ;) but we still dont have the conclusion. oh my, we are complicated. haha.

6. ethics exam

im going to retake my ethics exam again! haha. but its ok, i have mack and nad with me. yeay!! not that im happy that we failed last time but the fact that the course and exam will take place on wed and thurs. so, basically we are going to 'bak chur' (mack's ayat) masa the course. haha. and then, friday is a holiday baby!! basically dua hari je kerjaaaaa!. hehe. and im going to ganti my legal aid this monday, so selasa je la kerja. hahaha. gilaaaa la ;p but on the other part, cuak gak in case i fail again. haih. im going to finish my chambering period by the end of march, so if tak lepas lagi, its going to be trouble then. but im considering of extending my chambering period while getting a new job. if im able to get a new job by may, and i'll be finishing chambering on march. april nak buat apa? duk rumah? sounds GOOODDD. but i need money. takde duit la if duduk rumah kan. so i might be working on april just to have extra cash in hand. hehe. i need to pay for my car anyway, takkan nak mintak family. erghh. so thats that ;)

blessed.

.qhairawani ♥ edzuan.

it was a moment full of ♥s. enuf said.

p/s : i know this is like soooo last year. tak sempat nak upload ;)

temporary.

Its funny when at one time ur blog is full with all the good happy things, well you know, graduating, started chambering, raya, etc but at one point it turned another way around. totally wretched. and now, its full of desolation, unhealthy life, tears, breaking down, depression, bla bla bla. happiness just cant stay long with me ke? i was really2 happy for the past 4 months. but now, its all gone :( Giving false hope and promises which you cant fulfilled are not cool baby. not cool at all.

I know i maybe at fault sometimes. but dont hentam all on me. there's wrong on your part as well. i tried to give my super best. but it still didnt work out. well, this is actually the moment i fear the most. to lose and to let go. maybe after this i would not get myself into this kind of thing anymore. serik sangat dah. i really thought that i can rely myself on you but im wrong. well, u were, 4 months ago. you impressed me. u've proven that you're different. but now, jauhhhhhh sangat dah. its amazing how ppl can changed in a very short term. (and how am i supposed to believe in marriage now? does my marriage is going to last for 3 months only?) some people said, i expect too much. yes, i am, my history would be the reason for what i am now. but sometimes i dont think i anticipate too much. just show that you care. thats it. i guess its over now. i did not chose this. he did. 'tak serasi'. tuhan je tahu how hancur my heart was that moment.

Maybe time will decice. i have never hate him. i have never mad at him. to be frank, my heart is still with him up until now. but i need to step back and learn this the hard way.

Some said :

"Let him go, if he returns, he's yours. If not, hes not even yours to begin with"

P/s : deep within, please return :(

Radzin's Call to the Bar.

The third among us who had been Called to the Bar.

Congrats Ajeen.

To my dearest Syifa, all i can say, you're an awesome girlfriend!! :)

shits.

i said sorry. maybe i said something i shouldnt have said but it was a slip of tongue. i didnt mean it. i dont need silent treatment please. its effing bothering me in and out. if it was my bad, say it. SAY IT. please dont do this. i feel like shit.

i cant sleep.
i eat chocolates just to keep myself happy.
i bought 3 shawls in which i dont really need them.
i keep my eyes open when i shop just incase u're in the same mall with me (crossing my fingers not to see something which i dont really want to see)
i keep comforting myself when i drive, saying that everything will be ok.
i keep on looking at my phone hoping that i'll get a text or call from you. which until now, NIL.
i restraint myself from crying bacause im sicked of it.
i pretend to be ok infront of my friends because i dont want them to worry anymore.
I DONT LIKE THIS FEELING. AT ALL. IT IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY. FUCK.

nothing much that i can say now.

saya miss dia.

like sangat-sangat ;(

...you hold me without touch

you keep me without chains...

...i never wanted anything soo much

too drown in your love and not feel your rain..

-gravity, sara bareilles-

p/s : if only he realised this.

farewell two zero zero nine.

Happy New Year!!!

Goodbye 2009, hello 2010. I was with syifa on the new year's eve. We were in curve and yeah only 2 of us. Pecah rekod babe!! Celebrate new year 2 org je. Haha. I think last year was better compared to 2009's celebration, well maybe because of the crowd kot. But one thing for sure, during the fireworks, i felt something really deep, something that cannot be described. I felt happy but a bit gloomy at the same time. As i was watching the beautiful bunga apisss and mercunsss, a vision came into my head. All of the 2009's memories. The sweets and the bitters. But i can say the sweet memories prevail. My Convocation, Qherq & Wan's wedding, my amazing raya with families, my memorable birthday celebration, my first paycheck, what more? owh, i started my chambering period last year (6 months passed, 3 more months to go. Woohoo!!) And the last but not least, i met the guy ♥.

2009 had been a tremendous year for me, the greatest so far. I have been living for 24 years, but this 2009 is the best, lots of good things happened, i was happy and still happy till this very moment, people around me were happy as well. So yeah, what more can i ask for? kan kan ;)

Lets hope for the best in 2010. i am, indeed.

P/s : I really wish for this good feeling to stay and am crossing my fingers for a better life ahead. family, health, career, money, and of course, love.

the most waited event.

i just had a kl-alor star-penang-sg petani-kulim-penang-kl journey, and i had a hell of great weekend. hard rock penang is a bomb. qherq's wedding was fabulous. foods were great, the scenery was awesome. yeah, that's that ;)

well well well, qherq is now officially a wife of edzuan ezzady. alhamdullillah. the wedding was AMAZING. it was. the pelamin was really pretty. credit to que ariffin. great job guys! the cake, cantik!! cayalah intan, nanti saya kahwin awak kena buat kek untuk saya juga ok! ;) what else? owh, i cried the moment qherq and wan cut the wedding cake. well, maybe sbb lagu background dia jugak kot. terus sebak and there you go. i broke into tears. i tried not to cry actually. malu kot! dahla duduk dpn stage. but yeah, cannot tahan anymore. i did not cry during the nikah (i tot i would!) but mungkin sebab qherq was not there masa akad, so the feeling tu tak ada. if she was there with us dalam masjid tu masa akad and masa wan lafaz akad, big possibility most of us akan sebak but since dia tak ada, maka kurang la rasa sebak itu (fyi, she couldnt attend the nikah ceremony sbb dia tak boleh masuk masjid at that moment, tapi sebenarnya boleh je masuk masjid, eventho u know, penyakit monthly perempuan ;p) so, a bit ralat la because she couldnt witness the moment wan lafaz akad i.e the official moment she became a wife of edzuan ezzady. other than that, the nikah ceremony went well ;) we called qherq from masjid and said this...

"hello. boleh cakap dgn isteri edzuan ezzady?"

and she went like....

"aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrr!!!" she screamed, happily ;)

im very happy for her, after all she had been thru, wan is now her lawfully wedded husband, walaupun lafaz nikah 2 kali. hehe. nervous sangat kot! ;p

so, after qherq's reception, we headed to kulim for wan's reception. agak jauh rumah wan from qherq's. more or less 1 hour plus la jugak. it was raining during the journey but alhamdullillah bila sampai rumah wan, the weather was back to normal. so, we had our nasi minyak before heading back to kl. we went to penang for a short road trip. actually we went to penang on the first night we reached sg petani, on the day qherq and wan's nikah but we reached there around midnite so not much to see, owhh, chup, we went to penang fest. ada fun fair babe! haha. coolness. other than that, ermm, dah malam, semua tempat pun dah tutup. so, we decided to singgah penang again before balik kl. plus justine just arrived on the sunday morning, so takkan la nak terus balik kl kan, alang2 tu pergi la jalan-jalan dulu. penang was great. but i was a bit bitter on that day. it was ok earlier on, but after that, something went wrong. maybe i miss kl. well, not literally kl la. a person in kl i shall say. i had a minor misunderstanding with him on the night before. and then, watching my girls walking together with their partners somehow made me feel very down. really really down. nasib baik jenal had the same feeling so adalah geng. hehe. its not that im not happy for them. i do, seriously. but if u're in my shoe, u would understand. but nahh! what past is past. im ok ;) as now im back in kl, i am somehow relieved sbb dah tak jauh dgn kl. hehe. yeay!! but the not-so-good part is i have to work! b to the o, s, a, n.

i have no photos to upload since my phone rosak. so kena tunggu the rest yang bawak camera upload the pictures. will update sooonnn ;) so, till then. im out! weeeee~

smile

You´re better then the best

I´m lucky just to linger in your light

Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right

Completely unaware

Nothing can compare to where you send me

Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok

And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun

Fall out of bed sing like a bird

Dizzy in my head spin like a record

Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool

Forget how to breathe

Shine like gold buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone

Somehow you come along

Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that

You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun

Fall out of bed sing like bird

Dizzy in my head spin like a record

Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool

Forget how to breathe

Shine like gold buzz like a bee

p/s : mr, u make me smile :)

im in ♥

yes, i guess im in love. *winks*

the last text i received.

"i can accept anything for my birthday present, but the important thing is i just want to see that ure always happy with me...:p"

maybe for some people it sounds nothing, but for me, it is something.

♥, me

my 24th, straight from my heart.

17th december 2009.

heyloooo 24, goodbye 23. hehe. a year older, a year down.

well, as im getting older, i guess the time is also getting shorter for me to accomplish everything ive ever wanted and wish for. but im glad this year had been an amazing year for me and also the rest of the girls. we graduated, alhamdulillah, we are currently pursuing our pupilage (except for fiza as she is now officially an advocate and solicitor ;D) we've been thru every ups and downs together. everything. name it. a minor misunderstanding occured, ya, true. we did break into tears, but we managed to overcome them and walllaaa, we're back to normal ;) i guess thats the power of having a sincere friendship. not because of money, status, looks or what shoes or handbags are you wearing.

the girls.

i am blessed to have this bunch of lovely people around me. without fail, every year, yes, every year i'll have a wonderful birthday celebration organised by them. i had wonderful suprise birthday dinner, i had amazing bbq birthday and this year it was karaoke. yeay! but not to forget, i was attacked with eggs and flour a day before that, there goes my handbag, handphone, purse, book, car keys, and everything lah inside the bag as the telur dengan jayanya berjaya masuk my bag. lain kali siapa nak sharp shooter, sila panggil nad and syahir. my car was trashed as well. i had to sent them mandi and i was extra charged because they said the stain was very difficult to get rid off. pheww. got the picture already people?? hehe. yes, it was bad but its ok. bak kata nad "birthday girl tak boleh marah.hehe" so yeah, hehe. i miss intan. i wish ure here ;(

the boys.

jenal, nuar, syahir, wan. thank you for your time. jenal and nuar, kalau diorang takde during karaoke, it will be super bosan sbb no one will rebut mic with others. hehe. no back up singer, no rock kapak, no ramlah ram songs. yeah, thats them. wan and syahir. mereka lebih waras tapi kadang kala mereka hilang kawalan juga. haha. i wish zam and fami were here. but apparently they are now in sabah. siut betul because they terlepas from the telur and tepung attack. im the only decemberian kena. not fair!!!! ;p

the guy.

ok. this part. well, this year is kinda special for me. why? i have 'him'. hehe. not much i can say here but im currently in a happy mode, this guy, whats about him? i feel safe when im with him, i feel like smiling all the way after talking to him, im excited everytime i heard my message tone rings, i had this adrenaline rush everytime he walk towards me. hahaha. ive never felt this way, not even when im with my ex-bf. but its scares me in a way. im afraid this feeling doesnt stay long. so thats that. and now im smilinnggg macam kerang busuk. why? simply because i just talked to him on the phone, the 48 minutes 50 seconds conversation can really make my wholeee day brighhterrrr. heeeeeeee *blush blush*

kami di alor staq!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha.

currently in alor star, kedah. full of rendangsss and nasi impitss and ketupatsss and sup tulangsss...and the food's list goes on...weehoooo...

off to thailand tomorrow. you know, the best past of having an uncle and aunty working with kastam is...esok saya tak payah pakai passport!!!!! hahahaha. ya ya i have not renew my passport. nantiii laaaaa. no time lah ;p

YES. GAJI DAH MASUK!!! im going to get my shoessss as soon as im back in kl. tolong la still ada size since the sale is on and its weekend and orang gaji. sheesh, mcm tipis je harapan nak dapat kasut tu. then, i'll guess takde rezeki la kot ;( but its ok, i'll find some other things. BAGS!! ;)

am going to sleep now. good night.

*ada orang gila called my hp no few times tapi tak nak cakap, lepas tu, bila call balik, she talked like a perempuan with no brain. poyo gila nak naik suara padahal dia yang called, well maybe its not her, somebody else use her no, but have some courtesy to talk nicely la. i think malaysia should have this kelas kesedaran sivik. gila.

the 3 good things ;)

after almost a year, yesterday i finally had the chance to hang out dengan mr hanif khalid. gila lammaaaaaaaaa tak lepak dgn dia. and yesterday was ms intan's last day in kl since today dia nak balik kedah dah ;( she had finished her final exam paper in which she is now no longer a student. yaey!!!!! so, nak lepak dgn dia la sebelum dia balik kedah. so, last night, around 8-ish i picked her up at home, then amek fiza and headed to One U. met hanif there, the rest macam ada hal maka, kitorang je la. jenal will be joining us with his two friends later (this is what he told me la before the real things happened, i'll tell what really happened later). ok, back to the story, saya dan hanif tengok 2012, while intan, fiza, jenal and HIS 2 FRIENDS tgk the box. i suggested them to watch cter tu since intan tak nak tgk 2012 and fiza dah tgh that movie. but a reminder, jangan tengok cerita tu. they said the movie sucks.

3 good things happened last night. first, hanif. i must admit i kinda miss hanging out with him, so yeah, happy la kan, second, of course sebab dapat jumpa intan before dia balik kedah. i know that the feeling of "EXAM DAH HABIS!!!!AFTER 4 YEARS +, ITS FINALLY OVER!!! YEAY!!!" is somehow the ever best feeling that a student could have. maka, marilah kita berselebrasi secara kecil-kecilan kerana semua sedang pokai. hehehe, the third, this was the freakiest part, haha. the 2 FRIENDS OF JENAL yang konon2 nya..... owh ok, i just realised, i am not supposed to spill on this, so, it shall be a suprise since ada lagi few ppl yang tak tahu pasal ni. so, i'll keep my mouth shut, owh in this case, i'll restrict my fingers from typing such. hehe.

the first good thing : this is my always gaduh friend mr hanif ;)

the second happiness : my lady ms intan suhana. definitely going to miss you!!! ;(

*eventually i cant upload any picture of the person involves in the 'third good thing'. nanti kantoi. haha.

pisau cukur

the movie was cool!!! a must watch!!

it was a typical sunday, dimana kepala otak tgh runsing memikirkan esok kerja. but what the hell, mari menonton wayang ;)

err,went with a friend, it was eventually our first outing, so basically yeah, our first movie, (i think sudah ber'month'sss eversince the last time i watched a movie with a guy. hahaha)

the movie was just awesome and they even gave us free shaver. hahaha. (i got to keep both since dia tak nak kan) ouh, shahredza minhat is sooooo cute!!!!!! sumpah!!

favourite line in the movie : "oh my DIOR!!" hehe.

and people, i wouldnt mind watching it again!!! 3-4 kali pun tak pe!!! so, go go go, watch it!! ;)

destroyed.

ohmygod!!! lamanya tak online!!!!!!!!!

ok, first thing first. charger laptop rosak and it ruined my life for a week!!!! gila bosan tak boleh online! then, another bala malapetaka melanda, my handphone TAK BOLEH ON LANGSUNG!! bloody hell. can u imagine life without a phone, i'll DIE!! i did literally. well, u can ask my mom, the night my phone was 'destroyed', i cried the whole night, tak makan, baring atas katil, letak muka atas bantal, nangis dengan sedihnya, tak bangun2 sampai esok pagi. it was friday night fergodsake, sepatutnya time tu dah pergi berjimba-jimba with the girls and boys. bodoh betul!! so, the next day, saturday, went out with mia and nad, nad suggested me to buy this one phone which costs only 89.90 each. nokia, basic phone and babe, its original, zitron ok! haha. mia said this

"kau anggap je macam kau beli baju kat forever 21"

and i went like "did i just buy a phone?????!!" so basically we are all excited about the phone, ada sudoku game ok! and ada torchlight. (mia was the one who discovered this) hehe. well, nak beli hp mahal takde duit, so beli la hp ad-hoc ni. owh owh, nad said this :

"nai, ni kalau jatuh 10 juta kali pun confirm ok lagi, and if hilang, *mesti org yang jumpa tu hantar kat counter lost and found.hehehe."

*nampak sangat org yang jumpa tu pun tak ingin nak curi phone tu. hahaha.

so yeah, thats that. semua lah nak rosak at one time. and now im deadly broke. pfft.

..

...boredom yang teramat sangat. sekian.

twisted tuesday ;)

Status : naizatul nazreen got 80% of her 'to do list' accomplished.

Yeay!! first, saya berjaya menyetelkan semua matters both in high court dan juga lower court hari ini, when i saw the list yesterday, i was like "gila ni. boleh ke settle semua ni? macam banyak jeeee!!" but alhamdulillah. berjaya! hehe. first time doing the tracking system in high court. gilaaa menggelabah. luckily ms jo was on the phone with me all the way to guide me from step one. but!!! the phone line coverage in LPH,SAHC was very very bad!!! nyaris-nyaris nak kena campak dah tadi phone tu. dahla kena stay online dgn ms jo tapi every 2 mins putus. mau tak serabut kepala otak!!! but finally, its done. so right after that, im off to high court. met mia there. during lunch time, pergi ambil convo studio photos. paid the balance, yeah, 150bucks gone!! but takpe lah, not all the time kena ambil gambar convo ni kan. maybe only once in my life time. but maybe, (take note,its MAYBE.hehe) there will be the second time, tapi bila tu, erm, saya pun tak tahu ;p. so yeah, back to the story, after lunch, rushed to jabatan insolvensi in MRCB. ouh, bumped into nad!!! hehe. she was with her master just now, ada hearing kot ;). around 3-ish, went back to office. pada pukul 5.45, yeay. dot. mari kita balik!!

1. Bayar duit kereta. √

2. Cuci kereta. √ and its raining now. sigh.

3. Collect gambar convo. √.

4. Bank in cheque. tomorrow. couldnt find cheque deposit machine tadi. hehe.

5. Bayar phone bill. √

6. Buy fresh milk. √

7. Fix shoes. half √ ada lagi few pairs for fixing.

*Tomorrow i'll be in KLHC. sila jangan pakai heels. if not, kejadian minggu lepas akan berulang. hehe.

the end of october

alaaaaaaaaaa. selalu macam ni. i have lots of things on my mind just now tapi bila start nak tulis, takde idea dah. haih. anyways, last night was farah's birthday cum graduation party at Rootz, Lot 10. we had a great timeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! ;) but the not-so-good thing is, farah lost her Blackberry last night. we tried to find the phone, tapi memang susah la. first, it was dark inside there (like hellloooo) and there was no coverage in the club. back to the partay, it was a costume party, i didnt wear any costume pun, costume shops semua dah tak ada stocks, yelah, it was halloween kot yesterday. sigh. i met helmy, who happened to be ridzwan housemate, hes from Monkey Bone by the way, so, obviously he kenal shylla and also ezrina, its a bit pelik that dalam banyak-banyak tempat and people, i met him there! well, it all started when mia introduced him as Tomok's PR to me. hahaha. big time! confirm-confirm kenal apek (ridzwan) la kan as hes from Monkey Bone as well. so we chat, and kantoi la macam-macam benda. yes. its a small world people. tak boleh lari jauh pun. me and mia was soooo freaking hungry that time, like gila lapar sampai terbayang telur dadar, nasi and kicap. that bad! so, after that, normal place di tujui, mohsin ttdi. indo mee nya walaupun tak sedap jadi sedap gak lah sebab terlampau lapar. time tu terbayang indo mee darus, but doesnt matter la, telan je. balik rumah nad, say no words, terus PENGSAN. i had to wake up very early today and drove back home because some of the relatives from sarawak came this morning. so yeah, mata dah macam panda dah ni. as for today, i spent the whole day at home, tgk tv and tv tgk aku (kata ngantuk bagai nak gila, tidur la dpn tv) around 4-ish kot, tiba-tiba terasa nak keluar *i am not a homey-person la kot, tak boleh duduk diam kaki gatal nak jalan jugak* so, since masa tu i was texting a friend, spontaneusly ajak la dia tgk movie. he said ok tapi tak tahu pun nak tgk cerita apa time tu. but the plan was cancelled, something came up in the end. oleh itu, the plan postponed.

salah satu kenyataan yang sangat susah untuk diterima ialah apabila terpaksa menerima kenyataan bahawa hari ini hari ahad. like hell, i hate this feeling. tomorrow's monday. KERJA. B to the O..S..A..N..

29.10.09

* hari ini super penat.

* hari ini super mengantuk

* hari ini first time buat AORO in KLHC. (seriously nervous)

* hari ini jam teruk nak mati. i managed to finish up 10 pieces of sushi and a bowl of bubur ayam mcd IN THE CAR. that shows how bad the traffic was!! freaking lembab!!

* hari ini Shah Alam banjir.

* hari ini saya almost accident. again!.

* hari ini saya masih happy.

* hari ini ends here. goodnight. mahu tidur.

♥s, nainazreen.

mary had a little lamb. dot.

tak akan naik gred langsung!! maybe i need ambee zamri to be my teacher la. senang sket bleh rasuah dia kek lapis everytime test ;p

girls only. courtesy of intan suhana ;)

kumpulan purple.

kumpulan putih.

kumpulan merah.

intan suhana and dayang dee.

the stripes. dayang dee and justine syahirah.

siapa nak tgk rupa fiza lepas balik kerja. INILAH DIA. haha.

wordless.

hai, nama saya Naizatul Nazreen dan saya gembira!

i feel like dancing all dayyyyyyyyyyy.

(..and night) ;p

♥s.

used to hate this. but now, i miss this.

hanya di library bila exam, kalau tak, jangan harap. sekian ;)

*ada reason phone itu diletakkan sebegitu. haha.

bila final exams, ini lah yang akan terjadi. haha this is not THAT BAD. ada lagi teruk. trust me :p

few sleepless nights, getting the submission done.

and finally. this is it. yer, ni jer. bagai nak gila tak tidur malam just for this.

but it was all worth it ;)

this is totally random. dec 2008

ntah spec sape ntah ni. hehe.

So7 & The Rock Showcase @ Bar Savanh, Mont Kiara, Dec 2008

Finally. A scroll of LLB (Hons) Degree ;)

naizatul went from being "single" to "in an open relationship."

mari kita interpretasikan tajuk di atas.

what does it mean?

i dont know :)

in an open relationship? maybe.

in a relationship? not now.

The Moment.

When this photo was taken, seriously PANAS GILA. but it was hidden under that super happy faces ;)

Finally. 10/10/09.

The day that ive been waiting for. Its my Convocation Day. Adalah sangat gembira tapi juga sangat sedih. Being in uia was the best moment ever, its not that i loveee that place literally, well, i do love the university but the most of it was because i met a whole bunch of great people there, whom i REALLY LOVE. 5 years in uia had taught me soo many things, i've became a better person i can say.

"We are proud of you"

Thats it. I broke into tears after my aunty said this. That was the first thing i did right after stepping out from the hall. I ran out to them and yes. I CRIED. I owe this 3 women a lot. My mom, my aunty and and my grandma. This is for them. Kalau diorang takde, i dont think i would make it to this level. There was this one time where i almost gave up. I wanted to quit studies. Everything went wrong at that particular time, but seeing those people wearing turquoise robe, receiving flowers during their convocation ceremony did changed my mind. Alhamdulillah. I've made it. Weve made it. ;)

After all ive been thru, ive realised one thing. ITS ALL IN YOU. No one can ever define you. Siapa cakap if you came from a broken family, you will fail? No, you WILL NOT. My dad left me. He did not witness my big day, hes not even there from day one i stepped in into my first year in Uni. But yeah, its his lost anyways. Nak buat macam mana, kena kuatkan semangat juga lah. I have to go thru all this all by myself. Mungkin itu yang boleh buat kita lebih matang kan? (and yet, ada manusia bangang bernama daneal ckp aku tak matang. screw you little low-life scum. well, dont you dare coming back into my life.) I've learned a lot in life. Kadang-kadang kita dekat atas and kadang-kadang kita terbang tinggi sangat but sometimes bila kita dekat bawah, we'll be in the lowest level of life. Sometimes i did feel like im losing everything. Tak tahu apa nak buat. No direction. No aim. It was all blur at one time, but remember one thing, GOD IS THERE. Turn to Him, thats it. InsyaAllah everything will be okay. After bermacam-macam kejadian dalam hidup ku, my life is now getting better and i am more motivated in life.

Be kind to yourself, always give yourself another chance and continue loving yourself.

Because if its not you doing all these, no one will.
♥

Raya Open House 2009.

Saya, aunty dan uncle saya.

Aunty ... (erm, cant remember the name actually. sorry i have this short term memory.hihi)

Fatihah, Nikman's wife.

Aunty Saera and Uncle Halim.

Nadrah, Qherq, Nad, Justine, Intan and Mus.

From Kuching.

Wan and Qherq.

Syifa and Ajeen.

Nadrah, Justine, Intan and Qherq.

The Girls.

Thank you so much for coming.

Hopefully you guys had a great time setelah diberi layanan first class oleh saya.

Sekian, terima kasih ;)